[ She nods, curtly. ]

I made a lot of decisions I'm not proud of, once. People died because of them. I hoped I might be one, for a while.

But if I had, we wouldn't have had this conversation. I wouldn't have had a chance to be someone else.

[ She looks toward the door. There are several people she knows are anxiously waiting for her to get back out there in one piece. It also just makes it easier to say this, facing away. ]

I was really young when I lost my mom.

I lost my dad too, it just took him a lot longer to die.

I don't think your kid deserves that.