[Despite knowing he'd been an unpleasant, sometimes amoral, constantly snide nasshead, there is also always the knowledge of what he could have been. Even at his worst, he had been nothing like his mother, nothing like his ancestors.]
[He's ashamed of how unkind he'd been and yet proud of not being much, much worse.]
[But it isn't pride that makes him speak up in defense of himself. It's the fact that sometimes the only person that can take the hand of his inner child self and reassure him that he didn't deserve it...is him.]
What I was, was someone who had been treated like a thing as a child, exploited by others for my mind, when all I'd ever wanted or needed was a parent who loved me.
[He raises his chin.]
What Computo needed was for me to recognize he was the same. That I was repeating the cycle of deprivation.
I don't know if there is an inherent difference between AI in our universes or not. But in mine...that was enough.
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[Despite knowing he'd been an unpleasant, sometimes amoral, constantly snide nasshead, there is also always the knowledge of what he could have been. Even at his worst, he had been nothing like his mother, nothing like his ancestors.]
[He's ashamed of how unkind he'd been and yet proud of not being much, much worse.]
[But it isn't pride that makes him speak up in defense of himself. It's the fact that sometimes the only person that can take the hand of his inner child self and reassure him that he didn't deserve it...is him.]
What I was, was someone who had been treated like a thing as a child, exploited by others for my mind, when all I'd ever wanted or needed was a parent who loved me.
[He raises his chin.]
What Computo needed was for me to recognize he was the same. That I was repeating the cycle of deprivation.
I don't know if there is an inherent difference between AI in our universes or not. But in mine...that was enough.