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[walkingballpit]

[ The infirmary is becoming a very popular backdrop for these public posts, but it isn’t like there’s much else to do in the infirmary. “Try to get better” is going on his list of stupid things people say when they’ve got nothing, and he’s never going to say it to anyone again.

His bed’s raised to put him in a sitting position, with the tablet in front of him and his right hand hovering near his stomach because he doesn’t quite trust that the device won’t fall on him. It’s been that kind of week. ]

I think I’m getting sprung soon. There’s definitely less meds, and I’ve been downgraded from chocolate to tapioca so I think the welcome’s wearing thin. But, hey, the chance of busting a gut is way down.

[ He smiles, but he looks worn around the edges. The side effects of getting torn up by a maniac and getting medical care from an evil corporation and belatedly worrying about what he could’ve said when drugged. ]

Or it is now that I’ve officially used up all my related puns. I had some great sight gags planned, but they’re refusing to work with me on this. They won’t bandage me into a mummy, the doc vetoed my giant belly ring idea, and you won’t believe the look I got when I suggested a Mr. Potato Head port for accessories.

[ He shakes his head, because this is clearly a missed opportunity. ]

I really thought the snack tray attachment would clinch it for me. Next time I’m going to book a hype man for my pitch.

[ But, in the meantime, he’s here, with no cable, and he’s really trying to not bother people that need to rest. ]

Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks. [ He throws it in at a random space and doesn’t expound on it. Robbie doesn’t know all the ins and outs of how Rogue and he were found, but he’s immensely grateful. ] So... anybody want to play 20 Questions? Or tic tac toe or hangman, if you can keep track? I’ll even open up a PG-13 AMA.

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[ That sounds not so bad, right? He didn’t hear anything like “you’re down to 1 kidney” or “perforated intestines leaking poop”, so he thinks he’s gotten off comparatively easy.

Robbie glances down at his stomach. Although he can’t see the bandages or stitches, their presence is known with a constant low level thrum of pain. Comparatively easy, because he’s pretty sure he still technically has an extra hole in his body - does this count as being torn a new one? He remembers how the spear looked, coming, stabbing and through. Yeah... that counts.

He blinks a few times until the memory stops overlapping reality. Thank god for painkillers greasing the rails for his train of thought. ]

I’m still sorry. This wasn’t the plan... okay, there wasn’t a plan. I mean - there was a plan to patrol and then find you and say I liked you, but there wasn’t a battle plan that went step 4, stand between Rogue and a serial killer, step 5, Speedball gets impaled. She was just so fast...

[ What he wants is to fully embrace this new rule. Querl says he’s forbidden him to be hurt, and Robbie wants to give him that. Not being hurt would be really great, actually, because then he could help them take the redheaded queen of hammerspace.

Which is completely counterintuitive to accepting that practical demonstrations of physical harm are forbidden by boyfriend decree. ]

So I’ll... try. I’ll do the theories, you do the lab work. Ugh, no, that sucks more.

[ He’s trying to dodge promising so the universe doesn’t make him a liar. It’s going to happen again. Brainy’s a huge motivator, and a boundary that would keep him from crying is appealing. Offering to try is already a significant compromise, as Robbie thinks trying doesn’t matter after the results are in and you’re vomiting shadows or missing a limb or whatever.

A promise simply wouldn’t work. They’re in the wrong career, and quitting wouldn’t solve anything. It’s not like civilian means safe, but none of that will make Querl stop looking at him like that. ]

There’s always an Arquillian Battle Cruiser, or a Koralian death ray, or an intergalactic plague...

[googledox]

I know you can't really promise it. I just needed to try to speak it into being.

[It was irrational and emotional but he needed to let it out.]

[Robbie can't stop the crying. There's really nothing he could've promised or said. This is new territory for Querl, this caring, and that means he can't navigate with much emotional control. It's at least quiet. Querl's eyes close and a few tears silently stream down.]

Glotfelty and the other emergency doctors were nowhere to be found so I had to step forward. I've had recent medic training and standard Coluan education includes a xenobiological medicine module equivalent to medical school. I didn't engage in a residency but I passed the practicum on holographic patients when I was nine.

[He finally opens his eyes, his watery gaze sharpened to laser focus.]

You were the least injured, so I had to triage you to be treated last. I knew it was what you would've wanted. I knew you'd be upset if I treated you first at the expense of Rogue and Saturday.

That didn't make it any easier.

[The hand that had been petting his hair now cups Robbie's face.]

You like me, and I'm delighted. But you know how much I enjoy always being a few steps ahead of everyone. So I want to say that I care deeply for you, even just as my dear friend.

[He wants Robbie to know he inhabits the same space as others he loves, like Jazmin and Ayla and Shikari and Lyle. He wants him to know that eve just as a friend he is a beloved fixture in his life.]

I would encase you in inertron if I could, but since I can't, I want you to always carry that with you.

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[ Oh. Right, Brainy would know better than him that it can’t be promised, but that means Robbie’s thrown Brainy out of his logical rationale and into something normal, selfish, and more free. Ordinarily, he’s thrilled to derail him and get a real belly laugh or something that doesn’t involve work.

But this - this wasn’t something he’d banked on, and Robbie doesn’t know how to fix it. There’s no band-aid for losing friends or realizing that you might.

He cringes when he realizes that decision was made by Brainy. No wonder he’s still here. That had to have been weighing on Querl for... however long Robbie’s been out.

Robbie reached up and lays his hand over Querl’s. ]

I know you know, but you did the right thing.

[ He just needs Brainy to hear it said with respect and admiration, even if he doesn’t sound peppy. Brainy did good, and Robbie’s still here. ]

But - not just as a dear friend?

[ He’s muddled and unsure, but he’s operating with reduced introspection and thought-to-mouth filtration so the confusion escapes. ]

Grife, Brainy! I finally catch up and think, oh, wow, I’m all kinds of defensive and protective about Querl to the new guy and biting my tongue to not use ”and I really like him so shut up” as an argument and there’s no squirming emotional backwash, and I can’t even tell you about the breakthrough before you move the goalposts?

[ He may be zeroing in on caring deeply and misinterpreting, because Robbie has out Querl on equal footing with Robbie’s oldest friends for quite some time now. He hasn’t told him that, but he only told Vance that he was Robbie’s best friend after that stupid Legion Legacies video aired. They’re too cool for friendship bracelets. ]

But - I know. I think I knew, I was making the worst puns because I wanted you to know I was okay. Even if I wasn’t. But I am, so... we’re good.

[ They are good, right? They like each other. They’re sort of holding hands. All of this points to things being good. People don’t cry over him; this is very much new territory, and Robbie’s worn out people’s affection before. He retreats to joking around, because that’s a known quantity. ]

Except you don’t know the alien’s supposed to encase the space hero in carbonite.

[googledox]

Real life isn't that Space War movie.

[He's vaguely familiar but not familiar enough to get it right, largely thanks to Kon.]

And you will need to get used to me sometimes being a step ahead, you know. It's not a bad thing. If you're ever unsure about our - our relationship -

[That is what it is, a relationship. Something different than friendship. It's time to start putting words to it. Maybe not full boyfriend labels, but it is something different from friendship.]

- perhaps this means sometimes I'll have already broken ground.

[He already knows Robbie is unsure. He knows he worries about whether he's imposing. But if Querl's sometimes a step ahead, if he's expressed a slightly new level of emotion, of affection, Robbie will know it's okay if he eventually reaches the same conclusion. That it's mutual.]

[On uncertain ground, sometimes someone has to start teetering their way over it with careful steps first.]

[He keeps his hand on Robbie's face, enjoys the feeling of Robbie's fingers over his own. And then kisses him on the cheek, gently, sweetly.]

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If it was that Star Wars movie, you wouldn’t be interested in me if I wasn’t wearing a gold bikini.

[ He’s not trying a hand at flirting, just trying to keep it from being too much for either of them. Robbie doesn’t want to see Querl cry more than he has. ]

I’m sure I like you. I’m sure it’s a relationship.

[ Now that the R word has been floated, Robbie will run with it. He won’t miss the ambiguity.

They’re in a relationship. That’s a thing that just happened. A dopey look breaks across Robbie’s face that has nothing to do with the medication, and only deepens when Querl lays one on his cheek.

Luckily, no one’s paying enough attention to catcall, so Robbie is left flushed but comfortable. He turns his head to kiss Brainy’s cheek too, before he can move away. ]

And... I’m sure we just won somebody’s betting pool. That’s enough to go on. If you’re ahead of me... let me know. Send up some smoke signals, mouth the words and I’ll lip read.

[ He is looking very pointedly at Brainy’s mouth, and runs his teeth over his own bottom lip. ]

Might have to be real up close until we get the hang of it.

[googledox]

[Brainy arches an eyebrow.]

It's patently unfair that you're able to be this charming while injured and half-sedated.

[It was a good line.]

But I already knew I was in trouble.

[With the hand that was cupping his cheek, Brainy brushes his thumb lightly against his lips.]

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I’m charming because I’m half-sedated.

[ He’s freer with his words because there’s a bit more space to dip a toe into the flirting waters and see what the reaction to his attempts would be.

It feels good to be taken seriously and to get a response that isn’t exasperation or swatting. Just a little reward. ]

How are you in trouble? You haven’t done anything wrong.

[ Robbie’s speaking very quietly, like that would somehow limit how much his lips move against Brainy’s thumb. ]

You’re in charge. Just make new rules. If it’s trouble, we’re doing that wrong.

[googledox]

[His thumb still rests against the corner of Robbie's mouth, and his index finger traces the line of his jaw.]

[His gaze, though, remains locked on Robbie's, sharp and intense.]

There are good varieties of trouble, you know.

[He's pretty habitual about purposefully engaging in or wreaking some kind of chaos.]

[Being in over his head dealing with wild new feelings is one he's actually looking forward to, even though it was a state of being he hated in the past. Neither of them really knows where this is going and that's okay.]

[That's more than okay, that's appealing. It's an adventure. One likely to lead to good places, outside circumstances permitting.]

I don't know what's going to happen next between us, just that I look forward to finding out.

Maybe I want to be in this kind of trouble.

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[ He’s being drawn out of his comfort zone, but slowly and pleasantly. Brainy is just easing open the door and letting temptation do the rest. ]

Ooh, the good kind of trouble? That’s new. I’m going to need a leather jacket.

[ Robbie turns his head and kisses at Brainy’s thumb, because it’s there, warm and inviting. But he doesn’t purse his lips much, to bake in some plausible deniability if it’s too sentimental. ]

Faux, because I’m the good kind of trouble in the 31st century, and I want you to want to be in -

[ Yikes, this metaphor has suddenly gotten very hubba hubba. ]

The good kind of trouble with me. Whatever that turns out to be. And I’ll try to stay out of the bad kind until we figure it out.

[ He gives Brainy a slow smile and waves a hand around to indicate the Rig. ]

This doesn’t count as me getting in trouble, because you’re here too. Staying out of bad trouble doesn’t start until we’re home.