I'm sorry, Agent Washington, what do you think I was trying to do when you and Agent South Dakota were fighting? You were hurting each other because of me, and I wanted to prevent that from happening again.
Of course you didn't exactly give me time to explain, and I cannot blame you for that. Neither did Agent York, for that matter. I did try to apologize privately, in person, even if it was risky. I thought that the fact that I did so in spite of risks meant something, because I was and am perfectly aware that the only possible response to a simple message to your inbox would have been demanding me to say it to your face.
This was the best next thing, and honestly it was quite humiliating, I would have preferred to have everyone else not know and judge me, but I did anyway because I was already ashamed due to what I have done, and wanted to own up to it.
Unlike the Director, I was never one to be dramatic or draw attention to myself, much less in such manner. I had figured it could mean something. I suppose I was wrong.
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Of course you didn't exactly give me time to explain, and I cannot blame you for that. Neither did Agent York, for that matter. I did try to apologize privately, in person, even if it was risky. I thought that the fact that I did so in spite of risks meant something, because I was and am perfectly aware that the only possible response to a simple message to your inbox would have been demanding me to say it to your face.
This was the best next thing, and honestly it was quite humiliating, I would have preferred to have everyone else not know and judge me, but I did anyway because I was already ashamed due to what I have done, and wanted to own up to it.
Unlike the Director, I was never one to be dramatic or draw attention to myself, much less in such manner. I had figured it could mean something. I suppose I was wrong.