Very well, then. Let us speak in hypothetical terms, then, since you are not comfortable accepting what I have to say as truthful.
What if [he can barely hide his delighted expression as he's going to deliberately stab in every single wound he can think of] the Director did all of this for you? Because he didn't feel worthy of you, because you were too similar to your mother for him to handle, and he wasn't feeling capable of raising you properly.
What if he avoided you because he was afraid to get attached and lose you as well, to lose you in the very same way he lost your mother?
What if I saw him overwork himself everyday, but especially during the holidays because of painful memories? What if I told him to go celebrate with you, with his family, and he said that he had already lost and failed you?
What if he wanted to bring back your mother because she would have known what to do, and how to care for you?
What if I tried to convince him that it wasn't his fault that your mother died and he wanted me to believe otherwise, to blame it on him as the simulations to break the Alpha were running?
What if said simulations got out of hand, and I was worried for him and told him to stop it? What if I saw him self harm and hurt his own, physical body whenever I prevented him from hurting himself through the Alpha?
These are just a few, Agent Carolina. I have others.
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[He echoes. Oh Carolina, honey, you fucked up.]
Very well, then. Let us speak in hypothetical terms, then, since you are not comfortable accepting what I have to say as truthful.
What if [he can barely hide his delighted expression as he's going to deliberately stab in every single wound he can think of] the Director did all of this for you? Because he didn't feel worthy of you, because you were too similar to your mother for him to handle, and he wasn't feeling capable of raising you properly.
What if he avoided you because he was afraid to get attached and lose you as well, to lose you in the very same way he lost your mother?
What if I saw him overwork himself everyday, but especially during the holidays because of painful memories? What if I told him to go celebrate with you, with his family, and he said that he had already lost and failed you?
What if he wanted to bring back your mother because she would have known what to do, and how to care for you?
What if I tried to convince him that it wasn't his fault that your mother died and he wanted me to believe otherwise, to blame it on him as the simulations to break the Alpha were running?
What if said simulations got out of hand, and I was worried for him and told him to stop it? What if I saw him self harm and hurt his own, physical body whenever I prevented him from hurting himself through the Alpha?
These are just a few, Agent Carolina. I have others.