myagents: (exasperated)
Counselor Aiden Price ([personal profile] myagents) wrote in [community profile] piper90 2021-01-10 11:32 am (UTC)

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[Price is not the type to actually kill himself, no matter what thoughts cross his mind. He has faked it a couple of times when he was young and there were still people that cared about him. Or better, he tried right when they found out something he did that they didn't like and decided to give up on him because 'it was the last straw'. He didn't even succeed at that as he couldn't manage to get their sympathy or attention at all. It was humiliating, and when he's humiliated, or sad, or lonely he doesn't really experience it the way others do and it all just instantly turns to anger instead.

This time, though? He is feeling it, a little bit, because what is he supposed to do? Become a better person? That is boring, and not something he wants, and would be a lie anyway so he might as well do what he actually wants to do and mess with everyone, right? Wrong. He can't play with people anymore, he can't afford it anymore. That, and he's outnumbered, tired and getting old. Not to mention whatever Jorgmund's deal is. Whatever he does, he's pretty much screwed by now.

Maybe it could be a way out to not have others win because he won't have to change or do anything following their stupid rules, but at the same time he's also aware that it would be an even bigger win for them to just have him finally stop existing. He has to think about it. By time he's responded to all of those hate comments - and to Setsuna who was the only nice one - it's pretty much night. He'll just go to sleep and hopefully figure out tomorrow.]

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