001: Group Introductions - TEXT

[tarnishedavenger]

[During a lull in the party, Armstrong taps out a quick message to the network. Not that private one, he doesn't trust it. They can answer whenever they like, so long as he gets an answer. The trick would be wording it.]

So, we're all in this for now. You've had your welcome cake, but you can't meet everyone in a party, no matter how hard you try. But, since we've all been encouraged to sign up with Jorgmund, I figured now would be a good time to get some introductions done. Talk about any specialties we might have.

Share information that we feel comfortable sharing. This isn't to pressure anyone or to force out any dark secrets.

[Not where watchful eyes can see, at least.]

Besides, I prefer doing this to making a cute information sharing game.

So, please, make your own threads within this post to keep everything organized.

Comments

[likeits1999]

[ Kevin's brow furrows thoughtfully as he reads. ]

That all sounds about right, dude. And it's like... the hard thing is I can't even get all mad about it because I kind of see why it happens with vampires?

[ He rubs his jaw, gazing off-comm. ]

Like, I'm a monster and all. I try and be honest about that with myself cause it's important that I don't forget. Me being around is not great unless I'm keeping an eye on myself. Maybe I'm not a super bad monster, and it's cool that I guess nobody's making that a big deal here right now, but it's still a thing that's true.

But vampires... the way you deal with being a monster is real up to who you are I guess. And some people once they get over that, they start going well, if I'm a monster, who cares anymore? I already lost the being a good person game and the rules don't work all that great when you're dead anyway. And being a vampire is... you're dead, for a real long time, and you gotta keep lots of secrets, and alive people start being super weird to you and you can't be honest with them anyway, and then like bam you been around like hundreds of years or something and the only people who feel like people anymore is vampires. And all the other vampires are just as fucked up as you, and if you feel bad about any of it none of them is gonna care and it's like okay cool, how do you make up for a couple hundred years of doing bad vampire shit?

At least I think that is a lot of what goes on. I'm only ten. In vampire years. I just know some people who are old.

I think... yeah there's lots of assholes you can't do anything about, but some people can be helped? Maybe. But I think it's not really a thing I'm good at.

[ Kevin's the closest to good at it of any of his home friends, he just doesn't really recognize that about himself. ]

[passifloraincarnata]

I don't think you're a monster! <(｀^´)> Not in that way. ＼(｀0´)／ Perhaps you being alive hurts other people in some tangible or observable way, or at least makes living around you more awkward than for other people, but (ノ﹏ヽ) neither of those conditions are unique to being a person that needs to drink human blood to survive, and they should not be an excuse to wish for your own death nor fear your own self-control.

But, well, what a terribly lonely and alienating situation never dying would be ... I don't know how much I can accuse someone who watched everyone else they might have known pass, to find their only companions be the kind of person they'd otherwise find abominable, of being a terrible person for deciding they must be abominable, too, to have survived for so long. It's not like they must have terribly many examples to convince themselves otherwise, much less anyone else they could truly connect to anymore, to talk to about it.

I doubt it makes them less of an awful person to deal with, or be around, however.

I cannot speak to your own particular circumstances with any confidence or certainty, but my opinion is that how awful of a person you are has less to do with what has happened to you and much more to do with what you have chosen to do with or about it, within the options you have available. None of us are above making terrible decisions if life presents us with terrible circumstances and demands we make a decision within them. You are trying and you deserve to be happy! (>人<)

[likeits1999]

You and Nora are killing me with all this being nice, dude. Not like that's a bad thing I am just really not used to it.

[ Kevin's smiling as he reads, though he's trying to keep it small. It's... hard for him to internalize that it might be true when someone tells him he's not a monster. It does really cheer him up that they want to say so, though. That's like, real nice of them? It's pretty rad that somebody wants to say a nice thing. ]

Yeah man it's mad complicated. It doesn't make it okay to be an asshole but it makes it like... make sense and you see how it all kinda comes together into another person instead of just some bad person that you don't get why they do shit.

The way we get to feel about people is a bunch of things all at the same time like you can be mad at somebody and you can never wanna see 'em again but also they make you real sad. And you feel for 'em. And neither of those things make the other half stop being true.

[ That's probably the voice of experience there, from the sound of it. ]

You get it. And thanks for saying that.

[ He can't quite make that final leap, but he also doesn't want to argue about it. He can take it in the spirit he thinks it's meant: Someone wants to be kind to him, and that's worth plenty all on its own. It's rude if he tries to deflect that. ]

[passifloraincarnata]

Am I that nice? I don't think of it like that. I'm just trying to repay people with the same kindnesses I've been shown in my life.

Even if, it is true, not everyone has always given me that level of kindness. People still deserve the same.

I will always try! !(•̀ᴗ•́)و ̑̑

[likeits1999]

Not everyone thinks that way, but I try to too. I'm glad someone else does.

And I got a feeling we're gonna need it in a place like this.